Me and My Life

Dear diary .... and I turn 30. I have completed half of my life give or take 10 years. Birthday is a day to reflect on rest of the days of your year. For me the year end and birthday overlaps. So I make my decisions and commitments two days prior to 31 and have a head start . Well using the work head start is not me. I on principle do not compare myself with other people. I'm not living their lives so I have no right to compare my with theirs. So how was my year ? you ask!! It was good , I do not remember being sad for a single day.  Missed a trekking trip with a friend.  Some work days were long and tough. Gwalior trips with nice people from office Ace awards from office Married off a few people Tokyo and Singapore trip Amazing Amritsar and Wagah trip Rakshabandhan with Sisters and Brothers Stage play in office Go Karting from office  Swimming lessons Retirement of an uncle First Hackathon attempt  Engaged off a cousin  Watched my office te...

The search had begun. This thing cannot be googled, my parents are looking for a suitable bride for me. Is not going to be easy. You know what I am, a geek nerd and that too a proud one. And girls do not usually get nerds. This is good that I believe in fate and destiny ,  god would have made someone for me, maybe from my last birth. So what do I ask the girl when I meet her? what do I tell her? I believe the beauty lies in the eyes of beholder. So no miss world or miss universe would do for me. I would like a simple looking girl, whose heart is at the right place. All that is a bit difficult to guess in a meeting that lasts 15 min. And as you might know I'm terrible at judging people, I tend to oversee the imperfections and look at the positive attributes. But I don't know if I would be able to do that when I marry someone. Probably I'll learn how to live with her imperfections as she would have to learn to live with mine. Marriage is a complicated agreement, unlike our...

So a lot has happened since my last post which was technically few hours ago written an year I have been to Italy, innovation fest, trip with colleagues, fashion show just few of the things in a happening day to day life. Coming to present have almost started recovery from the worst viral fever as far as I can remember. There was this typhoid once which was bad and then the infection some years ago. I cabby really decide what to make this about work or health. I'll choose nothing Life doesn't always behave as you want it to, you'll get fever, crazy project with bad deadlines that would disrupt the normal flow and bring in some kind of excitement. It seems like disruptions are in season everywhere, everything is changing at a place that it is difficult for any one to follow. Algorithm is all that seem to matter now that not the input. Well I didn't study that subject in college but I gather that's different algorithm. Machine learning is the topic to look out for. ...

Dear diary I joined the new company 2 days after exiting  the old one. It has been approx 3 months in this new environment. It has been good till now. New people new technology new office new city etc.  People are good, more technical than my last org. Location of the office is quite happening. 15 7 2015 The post has been published due to excessive time in draft to give space for new draft   27 7 2016

Dear diary Its time. After 5 years in a wonderful company of sorts. to move on with life to clean the board and to write anew. To start from scratch and write a story again. Journey started on 21st December 2009 ,morning 10 am and I was 1 hour late and did not get the rose everyone got. 2 delhites and rest from Chennai and Hyderabad.Had on and off sessions of training in Java. On 5th Feb I joined the account where I have now served for more than 5 years. I had joined on probation and got confirmed on 31st March 2010. I remember how happy I was as my salary had got increased As expected I was not so happy till I went to Germany , then the things started to get bette. First trip in 2010 second in 2012 and last in 2014. Had a wonderful time roaming around the Europe. There were so many things that I would carry with me for whole of my life. Things That got drilled into me and mistakes which lead to learning. The most important part was the kind of wonderful people I met. Germans , I...

Dear diary In coming new days I'll play with my vanity and gather some words of praise that people have written about me on orkut Kya kahun. Namoonein to bahut dekhen hain , magar tumsa koi nahin. Bande main content to bahut hai, bas presentation ki thodi problem hai. Par ek baat hai. Itna honest bandaa dhoodhne par bhi nahin milega. Cares about his friends. Will tell you wherever u are wrong, even if he has to risk his friendship. Will take the right deicision , no matter what he s going through. A man you can always count on. Let me start with a translation. The guy says , he has seems many samples (including himself ) but he has not seen anyone like me, I have content but the presentation is not quite right (i.e I'm not so user friendly). One thing is sure that you cannot find a more honest guy then me. Rest is in English , truth is I cannot digest this much vanity therefore I would not go on to explain the rest. I had decided to do this sometime ago and this po...

Dear diary Hi everyone out there, I just had my breakfast at the time I usually have my lunch. So what! it is Saturday a holiday. A day I decided to write something to my dear diary. In some minutes I wish to get out of the house and get some sun light but I wish I can finish the entry before that. So what do I write now. Now days my workplace is full of uncertainties , I would not write the details because that would be so unthoughtful of me. In any case that environment makes you have same conversations and discussions every time there is some new development. Every time you get a hint or you get a feeling you evaluate the whole situations again according to that. Especially if there are things in your future that depend on that breaking news. Since I'm at a very low level in the hierarchy not all the news and reactions to the news reach us. Most of the things are absorbed at each level and get filtered to suit our stature. And there are ways to do that , one way is to not le...

Dear diary Today or in coming few days or months I'm going to try to point out few things that were norm in the past but are obsolete now. But before I start how is everyone out there  hope u r doing good. In the past it was common for everyone to follow their father's footsteps . if father was a Weaver he passed on his knowledge to his young one and install him in his place. Nowadays father is a banker and son writes software for retail. But still this has not got lost but has decreased to a high amount. Still in some places like business , politics sometimes the son the father. Another thing would be sitting women , absolutely the thing of the past . this post has taken too long. I would finish of with few words change is the law it nature , unless it brings large population under harm we should support it. God bless you God bless me God bless us all

This is a post from mobile. Daily I move from home to office .Around 80 km to and fro , it's a long journey and I thought why not . Though I fear this might not be a long lasting idea but let's see how long does it last. So what do I talk about here , I really am feeling sleepy but let me think about a topic . New year is around the night and it looks like it is going to be full of surprises. I hope they are good surprises. My working project is about to be transformed into a support project and though I do not expect any tickets for me. But still the feeling is bad , the amount of time and effort they want from us does not equate in any sense the facilities they want to provide. As the general opinion is around this might become a disaster soon enough. In a way it would be an experience to see things fall apart. I hope they understand and rectify their ways soon enough. My gut feeling says there might be a few days running around but other days everything should be boring e...

An example of focus is that when you look out of the window , you either see the windmills passing by or you see the marks on the window. this euro trip till now has been amazing is the sense of what you get to experience . What ever I see wherever I look , nothing is more enriched then my home country india. but every town in this world has an unique flavor. Flavor can be defined as different different things by different people , some define it as food , some as wine , some as architecture yada yada . Europe is special in a way that ... now I come to think , it's almost like india , instead of states , it has countries. Every time you skip a town you get different wine or beer or mountain or architecture or food or weather. A trip always has an objective for me. Most of the times it is cover whatever possible in a particular city other times it might be for something special. We go on trip with variety of people, friends , friend of friend, unknown and foes. latter only if it...

Dear diary Why do you remind me of myself (the part of me that I don't like). Why don't you show that you don't like me ? why do people hide their true feelings ? Why ? Why? .Life was going on smooth until something happened . Everything that happens has a reason , Just searching for a answers to Why has this happened and What does God want me to learn from it. Whatever it is , sure looks important. A little too much in the starting , my mind has lots of questions that are to be answered .this post is in draft for a long time. Publishing it

Dear diary Its been a long time again and I'm back in Germany during the composition of this post. And now I will share some of my recent understandings of this world. I have come to realize that those people which are not happy tend to make life of others miserable.It's like others are the reason for their present state of unhappiness. And mind it that it is not their intention , its just instinctive . What you can do is forgive them , forget and forgive are two difficult things but its no use trying to fight out of it as en eye for an eye will make the world blind. Accept it that this guy doesn't want to be happy and cannot be happy and keep that is mind while dealing with him. No this doesn't seem to be typecasting for me, well maybe it is . But I could not find any other solution to this situation. If you know do let me know. On other front there is a lot of work that is going on right now, but its good its easier to do all this work while sitting here than whil...

Life teaches you a lot of things. you like somethings and you hate others. One thing that I learnt recently is that I need a change either in myself or in people I talk to. Still I haven't decided which one is a better option leading to me being quiet . Will have to experiment with both the options here and there to conclude which one I'm going to adopt. It is good to know that one is not perfect as it simplifies some big things in life. I smell low confidence in myself , I know I'm not a social animal but I think I do not try to become one. I sometimes feel like Dr Sheldon Cooper who is always amazed by all the social customs and reactions he see around himself. but he tries hilariously to fit in them like by offering warm beverage . Sometimes I feel like I'm doing the same in the eyes of others .Even though I know they need a warm beverage and I offer them that they think I'm acting just to be nice . well it's their loss not mine when they reject the beverage...

Dear diary This is one of my status updates on facebook, suits me quite well doesn't it. I am not an easy to understand person as everyone is expected to be complicated . Simple mindedness is not accepted as simply as it should be. Everyone thinks that you mean something else while you are saying something . They tend to read between the lines when they shouldn't and they tend to take to my word when they should not. Something should be wrong with me as everyone else cannot be wrong. But who cares I will remain who I am and will go to become who I was to. Remove all the filters and then I'm really user-friendly and easy to understand. As I have always said that there is someone looking for me up there. He has proved it once again. I am about to get some good quality work in my office . I don't really talk about my work in my blog but this is a good opportunity for me .Everyone is so afraid of becoming jack of all trades but I strive to achieve that . No knowledge is...

Life is as normal as it gets with a few lessons from office now and then. Lately I have come to know some of those whom I considered to be my friend were actually acquaintances . They had given subtle hints but I was blind . Kept on behaving as a friend but not anymore. I have learn to say no ,make a face ,unfriend them etc. In short I have to let them go. I don't really know how many more ,going forward may turn out to be like him/her, but I know that I won't try very hard next time On the contrary , I have found some friends in the office. Hoping to go a long way with them. I know there is a problem with me. I don't really know how to test my friends. I think I have said it before also I know but I guess it's a good thing that's why I don't try to change it. I think that's enough for today . God bless you god bless me and god bless us all Btw this post is from my iPod and I am fixed between buying S2 or not

Dear diary Whenever I try to define life ... the only thing that comes to my mind is that why should i define it in the first place. Life is this life is that . life is easy life is hard , life is a journey , life is funny, life is fun .life is blah blah etc. first of all stop defining it .stop comparing it . Life is an entity (its not a thing ) which is unique for every person .Like we have primary keys for every row , we have life for every being in this world. god has given you this gift and its upon you how you make it for yourself. He will help you on your way in life as I might have said in my previous posts. This entity is an experience and an opportunity and what you make of this is up to you. one question that often comes in my mind is that whats my destiny ? do I have any? or should I look for it .. or should I just leave it to find me? What is the aim of this gift? So many questions and not much of a answer .and I am not really sure that I want an answer. Isn't it bet...

Dear diary Hi there , It's your friend this side after another long time , Every other day I think that I should write in my blog , I have so much to say , so much to tell , so many things in my mind that come up now and then .But I'm a lazy guy and sitting and typing is making me restless lately , I would try a video blog as now I have a webcam and I'm alone. But I know that it is not going to happen. So one of the things that I want out of my system is a bad landlord . He is so annoying that it feels like breaking something in his house before I go , but that is not gonna happen as I'm not a violent person and he hasn't tipped me off as of now . Till now he is irritating to a good extent. Sometimes when I think why he does this , I feel like mocking him of pretending to be a German while being an Indian. He has taken worst aspects of both lives and now is trying to make my life bad , but he doesn't know that god is with me and all his attempts will go wast...

Dear diary Hi this is Ankur bajaj as usual , u will find no one else on my blog.. Did i forget to write my location in my previous post , how silly of me . I'm in Bonn the former capital of Germany. So Diwali is here tom and what am i doing this diwali nothing much just dinner with my manager and then will sleep. In any case the only thing that i will miss this diwali is the puja we used to do at home , and of course the sweets and all the smoke. Today is my birthday .Its been a year since i joined the company, D company which has send me away from home and which intends to keep me here while a cousin of mine gets married this jaunary about a month form now. So its my birthday and this is the first time I have kept my birthday on Facebook . Every time every year without fail I remove my birthday from all social networking sites. This time ist there to check whether i would be keeping it from next year or not.. So what is up on my ...

Dear diary I am writing it long time before I leave India , because i know i wont be able to finish it before i leave, continued i have reached there and its over a month exactly 2 days over the month and now it 12 days over a month its getting cold around here temperature is dropping per day .... so i start , life is good here .its a small town quiet and very less population.Not very less but ya when u come from densely populated place such as Delhi it does look a lot empty.today we are going for some sightseeing and i have to get ready for that , would love to write more about my out of India experience and my new room-mate but that will have to wait , this blog post has been long overdue so will come back sooner than later , have fun you guys god bless you god bless me and god bless us all

Dear diary just published a post and now writing another one just so that i dont get much time to write.We are five in this cab all 5 different people , if you are reading this that you know me and now four left, well its difficult to explain everybody, they are good people and i have a good time with them in my journey home as usual long time since last word here ... there has been big changes in the cab ... people are four driver is different and only 3 of us are from original 5 and the cab is mostly silent with some small talk . Life is going good my visa has arrived from Germany and now I'm preparing myself for the trip of the lifetime, well i first trip outside the country is waiting to some true. lots of paperwork and all done and now the tickets are left to be booked and just waiting for the date of departure Meanwhile, my trip to shirdi is just few days more. will go there ask god for a good long satisfying trip outside the country.... okies guys have fun "god b...