Me and My Life

suddenly its like i have never been better feeling like being on top of the world . it all happened when i rewinded the tape and saw how i got three head shots and was out of the race i realised he was playing and i was the game and there must be a turn in which i will win , when he will help me win. now its just the wait when will that moment come and when will i receive his gift that he is wrapping for me maybe 2-3 more head shots or maybe more i dont care now im skipping satyam and now i am gonna try for csc or capgemini which ever comes first both are good companies its feeling good when u drop a company after three companies drop u infact its feeling great as i say god bless you god bless me and god bless us all

I have been helpless before been unlucky before but this was the extreme case of helplessness I have ever felt ( I know god must have something for me in store) but still I was feeling quite depressed and helpless yesterday until the call from a senior of mine . Well 3 companies written clear in two companies expelled in hr and in one out in gd just pure game played by god. I know god likes to play games, who doesn't and this time I was the toy yest night I had waited for 5 hours just to hear im not eligible why couldn't they take the interview and just ignore me later on. No they couldn't do it they had to take the feeling of expelling a person out and the lady was smiling I cannot forget the face it was like she is saying you are not a human and only humans are eligible . Well she shouldn't have done it and god too allowed her to do it , yest night I was angry with god for making me a fool it was such a fantastic technical interview the person asked me whatever I knew

Well couldn’t find any other reason why I was not selected in tcs and Accenture maybe wipro maybe evalue serve maybe csc or maybe cape gemeini whatever it is I hope it comes early as wat I lack is patience and this placement is testing my patience . well I missed in tcs hr and now I missed in Accenture gd I donno wats gonna happen ahead but this time of life is quite frustrating . 1 more thing that’s disturbing my mind is the amount of classes im missing for getting placed .i hope I don’t get detained and am able to pass all subjects easily . Well god tussi great ho lets hope for the best and wait for the gift he has for me in the waiting till than im gonna try try and try till I get some job and free myself from the moh maya of college .well I really wanna get free soon and fly . my dream of getting a card is getting delayed more and more , and I need to wait more and more . well I donno exactly when my dream of getting placed is going to get fulfilled but everyone says its gonna be

today was my tcs interview as i had not planned it did go well but they failed to recognize the talent in me and they didnt select me well the value has tcs was low in my eyes it decreased further they are blind enough to take people like a guy i know he knows nothing about computers and is a bully type i donno maybe they were looking for that kind of people in any case tcs case is closed and now opens the accenture case yaar itni muskil se written clear kiya tha sab bekar ho gaya koi nahi hota hai lets hope for the next interview and work for it paise jyada nahi de rahi lekin naukri to de rahi hai na bas phir kya kya pata kismat main kya likha ha i donno wat ever god has written in the fate will happen nobody can change it and maybe tcs was not in my destiny a little disheartened but surely not angry lets wait and watch im sad god bless me god bless you and god bless us all

Today I think is 6th of aug, it’s been a week I have been bedridden. When you fall ill a lot of questions arise in your mind and you have lots and lots of time to search for the answers. The thinking floats towards the unthinkable types especially. First thing that arises in my mind was why me oh good lord! Why me? With all the bad guys existing in the world why a good guy like me what wrong did I do to somebody. I'm always a helping guy not to mention being a little on the safe side, so that nobody harms me. The basic question …. I have never lost faith in you which I haven’t still and I never stop spreading your name. I thank you for every good thing you did to me. My mind is confused should I thank u for pain or should I continue my pray for relief. What I always fail to “stand under” is the reason for making me ill. Till now my 20 ½ years experience says everything happens due to a past reason and something will happen due to this and 99.99 % of those reasons you don’t know and