Me and My Life

dear diary i have been home for a few days now. njoying my vacations and planning to buy a graphics card asap. u know guys i always remove my birthday date from orkut as soon as it approaches like i did this year. i decreases the no of wishes i get but im comfortable with it. atleast only people who remember it call. well cant say there are much of them but i like the day to be quite one spending it with my family. as family comes first......... well even my good friends dont remember this day as i havnt given them any treats till now well if u wish to find my birthday date it wont be hard for u its almost everywhere on internet i just dont like guys wishing me just because its on orkut. I dont thing thats wrong......... frankly i dont care if u wish me on my birthday or not. well heroes episode no 10 "its coming". i have no plans for it lets c what the fate has in store for me. lets change the topic..... my result almost full was out and i didnt go as i expected it to do. we

dear diary So from today we will start my post as dear diary. Date 3 december 2008 and i think it is the birthday of the "sexi"we arent in touch much. i have tried but he seems to njoy his life and so am i . so why interfare!! lol so the paper got over day before yesterday and i just hit the bad luck in my last paper. my HOD did and unthinkable, he punsihed the students for nothing wrong.... just joking he wont be harsh .ie he cant be as we are the final year. major project ppt tomorrow and got a pc alloted yesterday, a nice core 2 duo 2 gb ram lcd screen etc computer with a fast internet connection.will start working after giving the ppt hopefully im not going home till 10th and my brother will buy a hdd and send it across . so the big news of the season ......ISTE student chapter under me and 3 events already planned with the biggest event student convention to be planned and executed by the group ajay pal sir assembled and dissapeared. As everything has some reason , group

well the life is being funny for a few days so funny i almost cried hearing the speech on ndtv sahi main bahut senti ho gaya tha he said that to shut them up impose emergency and kill the terror causing germs otherwise the incidents like mumbai will keep on occurring again and again what the hell happened in mumbai ...... they kill so many comman man and so many uncomman man got killed too well to heck with them i wish govt would do something. and i think something will be done but let it be some solid work and nothing should be lenient for the sake of public let the come down hard i remembered a even from my past life donno when it occur but it sure gives a lesson it was around 5-6 had my 2nd term exams and the result had come out. as usual i failed in hindi those were the initial days of my failing in hindi( have failed a lot more times after that) ya and i didnt show my report card to my parents. thought i would be scolded and grounded . so we went on a holiday to some hill station

aaj kisi ko poems likhta dekh ke mujhe mere wo bachpan ke din yaad aa gaye jab main bhi kuch panktiyan likha karta tha. around class tenth mujhe yeh keeda tha. poems likhne ka. aur wo meri class ka poet "the horizon" , i used to like his work a lot and that induced the keeda in me. well i think i wrote a few good works and lots more bad works but all in all i was satisfied by wat i did and i have it all saved in a file. maybe i'll write them all in the vacations or maybe i wont lets c because i have been thinking of wat to be done of them for a long -2 time i will see if i present world with my beautiful works of will let them stay away from world i dontthink they should stay away but yeh aalsi haathon ko kaun samjhaye "lets hope for the best and leave to the god the rest" this is wat i say most of the time leaving that topic i have my final practical exam today and i need to study lol maybe this is the last post before exams signing off ankur bajaj god bless u

somebody asked me why im so stable nowadays. as something big has occured and i had showed very less reaction to it. i replied life has played so many tricks that i have become immune to it. well thats not true exactly , nobody can be immune to life and its game . it can strike when u expect it least. macain would never have thought that a african-american would defeat him in the election . everything happens in the world. India beat Australia 2-0 wasn't it great australia tried a lot but couldnt help themselves. it was so feel good factor. saurav dada left international cricket and so did jumbo aka kumble. well a great loss to Indian cricket but i kinda liked kumble his personality well wat to say he is gone. dada was okay and everyone is gonna miss him . maybe in some future he will be a coach. which i think is gonna happen . few years of commentary and then coaching.... ending of another semester and this one is the most vella sems of all. i got placed " marriage " and

when i read the astrological forecast on my birthday last year i never thought it could come so true. it said that months aug , sept and November will be eventful and see the beauty aug was filled with regections and september with csc and now november with "the wedding" ofcourse not mine!!!!!! first wedding in my grandmothers family finally concluded on a happier note i have never seen a wedding from such a close level i have been involved in weddings of my other sisters from my maternal side but no with such a close precision wedding was good i wore my best "costumes" till now bought specially for the wedding. the most interesting thing in the wedding was the brother in law, the first person i ever saw that could barely speak. not literally but he was so over softspoken that i'll say that all the softspoken girls i have ever met would shy on talking with him. well see the irony of the situation he was a hostel student from ferozpur and still he was not interes

life is good on this side of the computer i hope its better on that side too as u know got placed with a moderate package and now there are not much of the companies coming to the campus but i have never been hungry for more will wait if something better comes up i feel like quitting studying but continuing learning like they say"i was born great education ruined me " i wanna end this ruining of personality by education well cant help it i have to come up to a decent score before i leave this place well i see myself searching for new things to fill my free time as im not able to study nowdays well first wedding in the bajaj family coming up soon and i cannot do much work in it why is the college situated outside the city well its a big occasion and the eldest of us will leave india after the marriage . well im feeling sad for the fact that she will be leaving us but the shaadi is gonna be an exciting affair well somebody hacked my gmail account yesterday but he didnt change t

today i know that it is 8th of sept and i am dead sure about it.................. i got placed today finallllllllyyyyyyyy i have a job, the company csc the place nitj the main thing i wanted to write about at this time was feeling . im feeling on the top of the world . the god blessed me with the job. i am so thank ful the god who passed on the blessings to me , the feeling of weightless and burden less . the feeling will live for 3-4 days before i start feeling the burden again. well im feeling great , ecstasy watever u name it. well this kind of feeling is not new for me but whenever it comes i almost cry ....... today was the "day" the main point is im not berozgaar anymore i have a job a place (not decided yet ) to go when i passout from this place. whole of the credit of getting placed goes to god. he blessed me with this job and i accept it as a gift man he blessed me again, one more time in this life he blessed me with happiness . i'll be forever thankful to him. A

suddenly its like i have never been better feeling like being on top of the world . it all happened when i rewinded the tape and saw how i got three head shots and was out of the race i realised he was playing and i was the game and there must be a turn in which i will win , when he will help me win. now its just the wait when will that moment come and when will i receive his gift that he is wrapping for me maybe 2-3 more head shots or maybe more i dont care now im skipping satyam and now i am gonna try for csc or capgemini which ever comes first both are good companies its feeling good when u drop a company after three companies drop u infact its feeling great as i say god bless you god bless me and god bless us all

I have been helpless before been unlucky before but this was the extreme case of helplessness I have ever felt ( I know god must have something for me in store) but still I was feeling quite depressed and helpless yesterday until the call from a senior of mine . Well 3 companies written clear in two companies expelled in hr and in one out in gd just pure game played by god. I know god likes to play games, who doesn't and this time I was the toy yest night I had waited for 5 hours just to hear im not eligible why couldn't they take the interview and just ignore me later on. No they couldn't do it they had to take the feeling of expelling a person out and the lady was smiling I cannot forget the face it was like she is saying you are not a human and only humans are eligible . Well she shouldn't have done it and god too allowed her to do it , yest night I was angry with god for making me a fool it was such a fantastic technical interview the person asked me whatever I knew

Well couldn’t find any other reason why I was not selected in tcs and Accenture maybe wipro maybe evalue serve maybe csc or maybe cape gemeini whatever it is I hope it comes early as wat I lack is patience and this placement is testing my patience . well I missed in tcs hr and now I missed in Accenture gd I donno wats gonna happen ahead but this time of life is quite frustrating . 1 more thing that’s disturbing my mind is the amount of classes im missing for getting placed .i hope I don’t get detained and am able to pass all subjects easily . Well god tussi great ho lets hope for the best and wait for the gift he has for me in the waiting till than im gonna try try and try till I get some job and free myself from the moh maya of college .well I really wanna get free soon and fly . my dream of getting a card is getting delayed more and more , and I need to wait more and more . well I donno exactly when my dream of getting placed is going to get fulfilled but everyone says its gonna be

today was my tcs interview as i had not planned it did go well but they failed to recognize the talent in me and they didnt select me well the value has tcs was low in my eyes it decreased further they are blind enough to take people like a guy i know he knows nothing about computers and is a bully type i donno maybe they were looking for that kind of people in any case tcs case is closed and now opens the accenture case yaar itni muskil se written clear kiya tha sab bekar ho gaya koi nahi hota hai lets hope for the next interview and work for it paise jyada nahi de rahi lekin naukri to de rahi hai na bas phir kya kya pata kismat main kya likha ha i donno wat ever god has written in the fate will happen nobody can change it and maybe tcs was not in my destiny a little disheartened but surely not angry lets wait and watch im sad god bless me god bless you and god bless us all

Today I think is 6th of aug, it’s been a week I have been bedridden. When you fall ill a lot of questions arise in your mind and you have lots and lots of time to search for the answers. The thinking floats towards the unthinkable types especially. First thing that arises in my mind was why me oh good lord! Why me? With all the bad guys existing in the world why a good guy like me what wrong did I do to somebody. I'm always a helping guy not to mention being a little on the safe side, so that nobody harms me. The basic question …. I have never lost faith in you which I haven’t still and I never stop spreading your name. I thank you for every good thing you did to me. My mind is confused should I thank u for pain or should I continue my pray for relief. What I always fail to “stand under” is the reason for making me ill. Till now my 20 ½ years experience says everything happens due to a past reason and something will happen due to this and 99.99 % of those reasons you don’t know and

hi guys training over it was tiring it was hard word but it all fared out well i learned a lot. met quite a lot types of people and i also earned for the first time in my life all in all another great experience of my life one more bookmark in my long life god has been good to me infact he has been great to me all my thanks to him so now is the time when i should begin prep for the interviews i need to give after i go back to college. lots of people tell me its luck and my luck used to be very good except in caase of academics in which it has alwaays beaten me. the dependency on luck takes the whole fun out of a game. if a game depends on ur knowledge u'll play well to win but if it depends on ur luck u r as good as anybody .so we'll see kya hota hai lets c what god has in his bank for me i know it will be good god gives you oppertunity and also limits them first three companies coming to the campus for ice and im not eligible for any of them. two of them are core and one is tc

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these days lots of things are happening to me one over another i earned something........ going to office sleeping there well they were to name a few the fact of the moment is im not getting any time for myself i need to do so much things but time is a problem im facing for the first time need to go now god bless us all

this week was busy very busy seven days of training and now sunday is about to get over without letting me even know it was there i had thought to write lots of things on ma blog starting with a thought that came to my mind few days ago when i was in a bus "If something happens to you because of me its due to your past deeds and never due to mine" well for the intellectually unawakened people it means for eg if u were benefited by my deed or i do something for you dont thank me thank god for sending the good deed through me for you Well when i thought about it a feeling came that i was just a messenger and nothing else getting very philosophical am i have to go now will c u all later god bless me god bless you and god bless us all

such a long time havnt posted here. had been buzy with my training. it isnt as good as i had expected but the good one would have been difficult to handle i had fun in metro walk with the old friends of mine will write more afterwards abhi sona hai so as i always say god bless us all cya tc gn

even before i could start celebration  of coming home , start going  to office  for training  etc etc fever caught me yes guys im down with fever and bad throat  and all the bad things that can happen in vacations as a result i have been stuck to ma bed and degrees of the freedom have been reduced or the time spend drastically reduced today i need to go to se my papers and lets c wat god has in mind for me does he allow me or not while thinking about wat to write in blog i thought wat a strange thing this is while u r not well even if u have enough energy to move around u know u cant beacuse fever has gone down due to medicine and can come up any time . so i am confused all the time to use my energy or not most of the times i dont but still if its getting very boring at bed and stand up and walk around or sit on a computer like im doing write now i had 101 fever, took my medicine , fever has gone down most prob and now im using the energy to write this post i know i would have to sleep

Hi guys exams got over and next week im going back to see my answer sheets. till than im a happy person and lets hope so that i remain like that so nows wat is called a training time and by my luck i have got a company which offers me a chance to learn what i desire. lets hope for the best and that i dont get disappointed with work life and my enthu about doing work remains same and after that the most awaited thing of my life the "placements" i may cross the 6 cgpa mark and then will have to work out through compitition where everyone is ready to pull someone back just to advance i may not come in anybody's path untill im desperate which means he is coming in my path i will discuss my placement scenario as the vacations progress and now i move over to my fav topic "life" i recently read a great line somewhere " one who has not learned to obey can never command" well i would like to stick it all over the coming first years so that they learn to do some

So I'm back after long to write a long post last few post of mine have been small one liners or so. This is my last post before exams and hope that these are the last exams I give seriously. A friend of mine once told me that I tend to accept the things as they are and don't try to change them. Well I can't contradict him but I wanna say that I try to change the things that I really care about, and one more thing I don't really cross lines to do it. I prefer to stay in my limits and work around the things maybe because I never came across such a thing that would make me cross lines like they say in rang de basanti "wo aag kuch kar dikahane ki". I have never in my life had that feeling. I loved one thing but as I have stated few posts ago I had to leave it. But I donno why I feel good about leaving it as it is and not fighting for it. I really tend to put things as god work and who am I the little soul to change it. I think I'm a little lazy when I say that

everything in this world is edible ! u just need to have the correct juices in your intestine i would like to ask something of all the world out there if u have broken my expectation once pls dont ask me for help because i wont refuse to help but my brain will always stop me while heart will say go on

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Since i have just returned from the yatra of banke bihari it will take some time for jai shri radhe to get off my mouth but i dont think so that it will ever go away as jai bhole from the amarnath is still there so yatra was good i njoyed it to the fullest and the food was good too the lassi wow i am gonna miss that kind of lassi. so where did i go it was mathura vrindavan and gokul the tirath of lord krishna was good and there was govardhan and shani mandir also. during the journey to home i met some lady who saw my hand and predicted i am not gonna study more than im currently doing i donno wat will happen but donno will study or not wo to dekha jayega i realised a thing after going to mathura why radhe aur krishna ki marriage nahi hui thi well believe it or not they are one and the same on this note tc cya njoy and jai shri radhe

now i can make as many as blog post and post them when ever i wish before this my blog post would come only at night quite a good tool indeed as u all know my second sessionals are on head and i need to study i would not write something for which i would have to think cya guys and tc and again wish me luck God bless Blogged with the Flock Browser

Im posting this blog using new browser named flock hows everything this post of mine would not be too big as my exmas are coming and i am taking some break fro the tries of study to write this post nothing much in my life except the sessional ahead and a paperconference with me as a treasurer under iste nitj student chapter april fool went quitely with a joke from college authorities of banning girls to go near oat well they should introduce parda too comon we live in a free country and have freedom to do anything well it was a group of guys wo 1by 1 were caught by the college authorities kissing and all today people have lost all their shame infact it seems they wanna show the world wat they do in the private life comon man thats the limit as we say in hindi "hadd ho gayee hai " i hope these notices decrease this kind of activities cya and wish me luck and as always GOD BLESS

that day somebody was shock when i told him that i maintain my diary on the internet well i told him if u wanna know me talk to me the diary is just the part of large amount of feelings once experiences at a given time 2 days ago i with a sir and a 2 juniors successfully organized a technical quiz technodrill and now im looking forward for the organization of paper conference in my college well ISTE has given me a platform after being pushed away from my dream as i have told u in my last post and im not gonna talk about it again so im still waiting for the result of my first sessionals as the result of my this year depends upon me being placed or not i dont feel like cheating the company to take me in but thats the last option if im not able to increase my cgpa i would like u all to pray for me and i know he who sits there will have something good for me well nowadays i dont understand why im not scoring marks as im not bored with my subjects infact they r interesting and i donno what

well this is a thanking you post for everyone who helped me get away from techniti 08 for which i had developed a possessiveness or i had thought it was my duty to do it some good you all guys created such a situation in which i couldn't work for it. well i will not name you guys and i don't anyone of you would ever read this post. and since i could not come to you individually so i am posting a thanks on the internet today i finally gave a farewell to techniti (dont remember how many times i have said that to myself) i dont think so i would ever say that again so now as i think im gonna focus of my placement and ISTE rest all things r lost it was a happy farewell not a sad one but i cannot cease to laugh on the blunders they will make as most of them hav little or no experience and this fest will be remembered as the worst fest in the college history.One thing i hate about leaving it is that guys from my year will not stop asking me if I am doing good Printing work or not well

the worst fest of my college life till now i worked more in my 1st year than i worked in this one. well actually i had expected this kind of thing but still as my friend says u get attached to it and if it goes bad u feel responsible for it it looked like first time everytime something goes wrong we said we had no money and now we had lots of money but still we couldnt make it good. well first time in col history so many faculty was involved and that too created problems for the organisers to show some innovation or creativity. i dont blame the students completely well it was the fault of the faculty to start it was a fault of mine to start and to end i cant blame anyone except myself for this bad fest and after i say this i am not gonna think about this again well certainly UTK ends now and for ever tom we are gonna try to see wats the state of techniti which i hav mentioned before that im not gonna be the part of it this is gonna be our last try the full and final attempt to get salv

management isn't a wonderful subject but i would like to quote something from the book im reading for it In this fast changing world all the elements of human capital erode rapidly -- knowledge becomes obsolete unless it is updated, relationships weaken unless they are continuously refreshed , and the courage to act diminishes unless it is regularly exercised. One has to become aware of these risks and make choice s about where to work and what to do based on that awareness .Instead of selling one's talents to the highest bidder, the opportunity to enhance personal human capital must be an integral factor in one's decision on where to invest the existing human capital i hav decided to include things i find in this world and i find them interesting on my blog thats for now cya later

Yesterday night while talking with karnatak a thought struck me and upon his idea I decide to write something after a long time .we were just throwing our thoughts at each other when I realized the thought I had just spoken was on “choice“. I had heard the 90/10 formula which applies on the reactions and now I had applied it on choices a person has the exact words that came out were “90 % of the things u do is a result of your choice and the rest 10% is a choice of destiny” Well I don’t deny that destiny does not play an important role in our lives but the point I am making is that it plays important role iff the big decisions of your life come in the 10% reserved for your destiny As they say “you always have a choice “. That’s 100% true even for the 10% part of destiny, as whatever you do becomes your destiny after it has happened. To explain my point let’s take an example. When I first came here after getting a seat nowhere, I knew my destiny has brought me here but still I had a cho

most of the times i can expect a bad news but this time i didnt this took me by surprise and now to undo the effect of this bad news i hav to work hard cut my visits home and study study study well thats the toughest job ever but a man gotto do what he gotto do and for my job i need to do it well its hard for me to see the negetive side of the thing but my mind keeps floating to the ifs and buts bad dreams of the result going haywire well only thing im doing for this is taking gods name asking him for help asking him to clear my path but somewhere in deep heart i feel this is a part of his big plan and the result of this plan can be goo or bad that i dunno but hey god im not a bad guy dont punish me lets see where does this adventure lead to i hav decided to study today and that i will. now days php-mysql takes a the time im not studying i think im not working hard on it and will hav to concentrate more Nowadays the net is available at the room so i quickly find my doubts @ google the

today im gonna talk about humour well my views and all i can think about it As we see all around us guys and girls laughing and having a good time . has any1 tried to explain wat a humour is. wordweb says A message whose ingenuity or verbal skill or incongruity has the power to evoke laughter well all im doing here is explaining why am i not a humourous guy humour is 90 % exaggeration and rest situational well this is true atleast for veg humour so here comes the big question(at least its big for me) why im not a funny guy well i explain it like this this spontaneous exaggeration thing does not come naturally to me and i never tried to develop this skill so thats the end of a short post will be back soon with more definitions the ankur bajaj style till than tc

ya tomorrow thoda late ho gaya par yes im back and now im back finally in bed with minus temperature around me and a trip to science city today will upload pics soon thoughts from my mobile "i never get angry with anyone only disappointed" "im selfish ...... in case of experience, everything i do i do it for me" i believe i hav to see a lot of wat we say this world and i dont mind seeing it as soon as possible novels r a great way to see whats going on in this world and how people work ya this business that im doing sitting in jalandhar is going not as great as i would hav expected it to go but sttill i cant complain as im not doing much for it well i had lots to write before i sat down to write and now i cant remember wat it was my birthday went as i would hav expected it with myself removing it from orkut i never expected many guys to send a msg or call and they did wat they were expected to do forgot it happens and the new year party was wat i expected it would

here comes the new year wishing all my blog readers (which i hav a doubt that they exist or not) a very happy new year i wich to write a lot but i think i will go not come back later tom and write something cya guys later