Me and My Life

Dear diary As all those who know me ,know that i just joined corporate world in for of CSC. feels like a good company and have been given java as technology.There is not much of name culture as i heard about in other companies . rest all time will tell. LIfe is great as of now . A thing that i noticed about myself nowadays is that i as as "know it all".i tend to show everyone that i know a lot which i know is not true in any way. but i don't know how should i control my this bad habit . From tom morning I'll try to reduce my lectures and all . So its time for me to sleep I'll try to write more diary in my way to office in metro. Waise there is no space at all in metros while traveling .Anyways time to sleep. i'll quote my current Gtalk status msg to finish my post. may you live every day of the new year and many years to come ....... happy new year .....god bless  and in the end i will end my post with my usual quote. God bless You ...god bless me and god...

Dear diary I have thanked god for the joining letter orally but i thought i had cursed him through this blog so i should thank him through this also. the best 6 months of my life . and now begins the fun ride . i feel like a cowboy which has practiced for a lot of time and now its time for the real ride . He knows its gonna be fun and tough ,depending upon his attitude . So lets face it guys (and gals)(actually i was thinking of writing guys also in bracket) , a part of life has just ended and a big part has just started the corporate life , word is scary and the real life presentation will be more scarier . I am very-2 excited about the job, i feel like its my time thats gonna come .i did lots of things in this free time of my life lock3rz ,contests2win etc etc and i hope to continue them after i leave this "avatar " and wear a face for the world. So Where doe sit leave this blog , u know im getting a feeling that posts on the blog might increase as i would have lot of fre...

Dear diary I'm speechless nowdays wats the plan ..am i to wait for the company to call me which they say will come till april, no i cant for so much time..maybe the'll call me maybe they wont . oh god wat the hell. anyways gave tavant technologies interview. looks like a nice company , i was the "perfect candidate" small company less then 750 people and i am a computer enthusiast who likes to work on computer .i will learn easily and will work hard. but looks like it was not to happen. but still will mail them tomorrow. Anyways i am supposed to take some lesson from the interview but i still havn't figured out what it is. maybe i get emotional and all in the interview. maybe i hav eto thikn of another answer to the tester question . i cannot really tell where did i go wrong, if i have gone wrong i'll get a negetive mail reply tomorrow.Thank i will think what could have gone wrong . So big question what now, right now search for job is going on and I'm go...

Dear God please tell me " mujhse chahta kya hai(what do you want from me)" keeping secret about my job at CSC, "bache ki jaan lega kya( want to kill me or what)" i only wanted vacations without any burden and now all i can think about is job. will CSC call me ? should i concentrate more on naukri.com etc . Had pleaded you for this job and now i dont know what wrong did i dobetween so as to getting my holidays wasted. I have been a good boy mainly with bits and pieces of bad stuff, come on who is perfect..But i cant seem to fugure out what wrong i did for you to punish me . I have always done what my heart has asked me to and there is nothing that i regret. i have been home for three months ,that is all i asked of you .Now could you please put me back on track so that i can live rest of my life in a good way, i have always believed what you do is good. But this suspense is killing me If you don't think CSC is good for me ,please get me a rejection lettertoday an...

Dear diary Hi guys hope everyone is happy and doing good. I’m doing great as usual except few downs in life such that poor car driving and not getting call from csc till now. Not much in life right now except these two things. The topic I am choosing to write upon is.”Modernization- a bane or boon”. And I'm not talking about industrialization or CO 2 emissions. I'm gonna express my views about the change in society that is due to the modernization of everything Let’s see. “The growth of women”. I always wonder if women are placed so highly in our sacred texts why were they mistreated and after deep thinking only reason I could find was that they were considered sacred and were to be protected from the outside world. Now they are out in wild competing with the opposite sex for a better place. Like I have mentioned before girls always get more marks then boys. The communication is getting simpler and tougher. For instance I may not have known what my class 12th friend would...

Dear diary hi guys hows everything. i m doing good. hope you are doing fine My big bro ,bhai celebrated his birthday on 3rd with lots and lots of phone calls and a cake party with friends. He spent all day getting wishes and all . On the other ahnd i recieve 6-7 calls from friends.Basically , i havnt celebrated birthday with any of my friend will now . None of my casual friends even know when is the day . I think i'll get a lot of or msgs if i let my orkut or facebook display my birthday on.but i wont do that as usual beacuse i think if someone wants to wish me he/she should look for birthday, finding which wont be difficult i dont mind getting few extra calls that day but still. End of discussion. I am in a happy and satisfied state of mind right nowand sometimes i wish world would end right here right now so that i do not see the bad times .My faith in god is making me hang on to my csc job that he gave me after after so much request , And now i pray everyday that i get the d...

Dear diary ganpati bappa morya -ganesh chaturthi mubaraq ho aap sabhi ko . Saath main navroz -parsi new year ki bhi shubhkamnaye. i read this mail from someone and i really liked it Micchami Dukadam Khamemi Savve Jiva - I forgive all the living beings Savve Jiva Khamantu - I seek pardon from all the living beings Mitti Me Savva Bhutesu - I am friendly towards all the living beings Veram Majjham Na Kenvi - And seek enmity with none these lines are all about asking for forgiveness from one and all. and also forgiving all. Well i have always tried to adopt this approach but im but a human being easily fed to emotions and mistakes are just the steps required to grow.Well i may sound confused now, it happens . So the thing in my life right now is that i need to find a job. how much time more will i enjoy my life too much good is also not good for health. its time for change and now im convincing myself that i need to find a job. Accenture gave joining and my mates are joinig on ...

Dear diary so August is here and there is no progress in my status. life has been good but the scare is high ..... will i get a call , i get a call. I think about it every odd hour will i have to search for job or i'll get a grand entry in the tech market. CSC guys are getting on my nerves by the day..... its been time since i have studies something and they are planning to take a second interview according to the csc group , i donno wat will happen but its getting scary by the day..... market is dull and im all pampering myself with wat ever i want wasting time to do wat i always wanted to do gaming series. i dont know if i need to do job searching right now. life is a puzzle and im running away from it right now living it for once . i dont wish to solve it i need time to solve it for me. please do something god some light in the end of tunnel . hope is there but it wont be there untill u get some signal. waiting for something

Dear diary life is going on very smoothly ...... so smooth that it sometimes scares me that what is there for me in the future . Half of the july is over and tom most probably im going for harry potter the sixth ......and than im gonna do kite flying .........yes its the kite flying season again...... 15 aug when we control the freedom of kites . i just love being in control of something .Most of the times its my kite that goes after being bit by another , but still i am learning considering i didnt had much chance to fly a kite as i have a elder brother who is good at it but this time im gonna put into practice all i have learned after i was allowed to handle the thread. I completed the series house md 5 seasons and full metal alchemist long ago nowadays i have started scrubs ,24 and hustle. im loving the time pass. i got myself few novels and havnt been able to get time to read them ;) . my father has got transferred and i do miss him. ya something interesting happened since the last...

Dear diary So this is me again .............. who else would you find in my blog...... its been 20 odd days at home and july month is about to start in few minutes . i would i like to write my second post of this month. life has been good with my new graphics card and lots of series that i have collected in my last semester. house is my current time pass. and have completed full metal alchemist. I am facing mixed emotions nowadays...... should i work should i njoy ? should i loop for a job or should i wait for csc. my god help me bless with a solution. As you all know i just completed my engineering and am home full time now. no work just using the electricity at home to play to watch TV and to download games and songs. i am so perplexed about the current situation that im not able to concentrate on new things to learn and explore. i fear job so much that i think i wont be able to do any leisure activity after i enter my job fu fledged so im cought between masti and learning new things...

Dear diary Time over at jalandhar. Was not a good city but lot better than .....donno something worse. lots of ups and downs. so many of them that me a case of short term memory loss cant remember them all. When i came here the college was a jungle and for me jungle book had just started. people just hated delhiwallas and i know why they do so, as guys tend to be mean and selfish. and when they saw me they expected me o be like that only , and when i turned out to be different they had a difficult time accpting me and even my co delhi walas didnt expect such a nature from me. So while so unaccptable i was i found very good friends by the time i left the college. while i spent my life at college i met a lot of people good bad and no not so ugly. बुरा जो देखन मैं चला बुरा न मिल्या कोए जो मनन खोजा आपना मुझसे बुरा न कोए so i found no ugly or i just tried to find good in all, thats i nice quality i realised just now. So its some time i have found people who love me for wat i am however irri...

Dear diary lots have happened in my life since the last post of mine. few good things and a bad thing u can get the regular update from the twitter where i have joined and i usually tweet new things that happen the thanks giving party was the best ever attended. i danced a lot for 24 hours from hostel night to the thanksgiving. i have never danced so much in my life and the thing that happened nect day is unspeakable. My dearest aunt ....god bless her soul. the time has come when the goodbyes has begun two mates are leaving tommorrow .Donno when will i see them again. i wish them farewell , do good in anything you do. So this is gonna be the sceane in the few coming days farewells and keep in touchs....... lots of people will leave never to be seen again or heard from. i got too much from this placeor the life of these 4 years to be able to return it .......... i will finally be able to increase my cg to 60 % tom and after we enter this again wont matter, all that will matter is how w...

Dear diary Long time has passed since my last post and nothing much has happened since then. project work is still going on and bad farewell ,college tours photos and etc . the project has its speed and it looks like its gonna be a last minute finish as we are stuck at a place and are not able to move fwd About the farewell fiasco ,well havent seen a poorer farewell in my 4 years and to say of it juniors didnt wanna give it , they gave just for the formality.Well i really dont wanna remember what happened in that not so farewell like farewell . there was no prepration due to no respect and nothing in it to call it a good bye So leaving it behind i come to the point of saying farewell from college. the time has come its almost over, the life of four years , the time i relished .............Comon this is senti today is 8th may 2009 by the end of the month i will be gone to my home sweet home and will be lying on bed doing nothing al all. well im gonna miss my room no 108 124 and 201 , l...

Is your god better or mine It doesn't matter who i am A hindu , a muslim or a christ O maybe none of them none of any I reuse to believe That god could pass a sieve He is the faith the undefined the unexplainable the hope the empathy he is the peace and whence we fight it aren't right The immortal doesn't live at a place oh god gimme some solace You fight with someone because you fear you then forget that god will hear He sees you he sees us all and maybe he cries and maybe he knows the greatest foe of man is the bow of man God bless us you for you need this god bless us all for we all need this Ankur bajaj 1:43 14/4/09 hostel room No comments requested

dear diary Our family astrologer says i'll study more. well so unlikely it may seem but nobody has ever questioned him or watever he says gets true, but we'll see Just 19 working days left and 40 as such and the life of hosteler at nitj seems to be coming to an end.who knows where will i be when i study more and if i study more!! Its been fun being in a hostel with couple of friends around.Sitting in the room all by myself. those latenight chats when youve got something imp to do about an entirely irrelevant topic . The feeling of fire which makes you a rocket.Well im having a hard time believing we are not going to be here for more time. I just returned from a trip to jwalaji and chintapoorni , had to stay there in night as no bus after 6. so here we were 3 guys to a pilgrimage . one of us couldnt stop swearing as it had become hi s habit.The trip went fine except the night when i had not taken the blanket due to hygiene reasons .i always fear that i'll catch this of that...

i have lost to tell to all you guys who are not reading me. the fest utkansh is coming to an end. well its a typical sad ending in my life . Utkansh didnt happen as it was supposed to happen or what i thought of utkansh at the end of my second year. ---------- Utkansh has come to an end and so has started my cold . im suffering from cold and am bedridden for two days.So where was i utkansh had so may shortcomings from the administrative side but the fest as such was brilliant .The Dr kumar vishvas maglomaniac his some old some new jokes his spontaneity and his simple poems .All in all he was too good. and infact i have got a pic of his with me. which i shot after waiting for an hour in the guest house where he was chatting with director over national and international issues. he lied a little bit played with the sentiments but have got style. An engineer who dropped from nit allahabad , now have a doctorate degree in hindi. The other kavi that came were also impressive but not much jun...

It’s been a long time since I talked to myself in written. So here I am on the Delhi to Jalandhar superfast train, I start to write a diary Dear diary Sorry for such a long wait for the entry, actually I have been very busy doing everything movies, series to sleeping the life is the final sem hasn’t been uneventful. The games of g1 g2 and g3 and wo final sem ki feeling and of course the trip to pong dam, viney ki extra feeling and many other things. Sometimes I feel that I’m gonna miss my freedom of waking up and sleeping to my wishes after college ends in few months gosh 2 months remaining and I have lots to do as the say miles to go before I sleep . I am coming back from holi which I didn’t celebrate and I'm coming back just for the reason of coming back to last semester. Utkansh this time doesn’t have any administrative work that can excite me for the sole reason that they don’t think I’m of any importance to the cause of utkansh and I wish to enforce myself on them. My dear fri...

I have been too buzy trying to find something to do that im doing all sorts of things nowdays watching soaps working on projects playing monopoly , lying and listening to music and finally doing nothing for hours , that I am not able to get time to write a blog post So here I am feeling good but empty of any desires to keep the mind running. I’m liking the time but hating to spend it on the first class in the morning why do the teachers even come for first class. Well I hate getting up in the morning after sleeping so late in the night. My didi’s ticket is booked and its just 2 days before my exams and she expects me to come and see her off. Which I thing would be difficult but I donno what to say, I donno what to expect from myself whether I would be able to come or not. I do what I do the best leave this on time and god. They decide and pass on the message. So the convention I was trying to get done was canceled due to the most unexpected reason ever the change of administration in t...

dear diary me-i canceled my graphics card diary(shocked)- m-yup i did it d-decision was tough? m-but still i took it i sacrificed of delayed the graphics card for atleast 6 months d-why? m-just for my future... i dont need anything to come between me and my 60%.... d-well the gap isnt much m-still i wont take chances d-you have always done wat you wanted? m-ya thats why this decision was the toughest one to take d-being brave huh? m-ya i dont wanna ruin my life just because of a small wish d-tere bachpan ki wish? m-koi nahi thoda aur intezaar kar legi you might be thinking yeh kya ho raha hai thats me talking to my diary so thats it no gaming nothing just this last sem in which i will have to work hard as i have been trusted with lots of responsibilities and all that. i only hope that i am able to fulfill them happy new year to everyone out there hope all the wishes of yours get fulfilled this year and ya i celebrated my birthday through a cake after a long-2 time. was in my tayaji...